This post I dedicated to the boy who I’ve been loved for these whole worthwhile time. Dear boy, after the 4 months we break up, I can’t deny that I’ve been busy to find such a possible and reachable way to win your heart back, I know, I have been cheated on you, I lied and one must not tell lies, I throw tantrums at you, I say those vulgar words out loud, I said I hated you, I even worse tried to make you hate me too, but what I have seen, what I have realize is, you don’t even move a single bit. Your heart, your love never stops to beat for me, You keep coming back, you said you want me, and the best thing is you said you still love me no matter what happens. That made me think, you made me sat all day long, you never said to clean the slate off, you never ask briefly about what is really happens during those 4 months, I really wanted to come clean about things I have done, mistakes I have done, Unfortunately I have no guts, no guts to tell you what I have done, The thoughts of losing you had control my mind, I painfully had no clues how to tell you about everything, until the day you discover bit by bit, little by little things I have done starting about that you-know-who.Here, over here in this social network place where I can’t see your face,I can’t here your voice, I choose this place to tell what is really happen with hope you will understand and never question about it ever again. I was on the verge where I feel insecure when I have overheard you seeing someone else. I had no choice but saying yes to another boy, you leave me with something that beyond my means to control, my brain could not decide a right decision to choose, I didn’t lie, of all those day I am with the stranger, Every single day I tried to figure out on how to get rid of the stranger, I made a mistakes by saying yes, I have to avouch what I have started, and you started to know about it, when you questioned, I denied, I lied I even mad at you, but still you still there for me, you hardly to giving up.I felt so special, I felt regret of all the mistakes I have done to you. But tonight, I swear, I have confessed everything that you deserve to know. I’m so lucky to have you standing right here by my side all the time. Thank you for loving me until now, thank you for your unstoppable love. I’m no one to compare to you. But one thing you need to understand, all of these thing happens just because of one thing, one thing that eat us inside, JEALOUSY.Thanks for reading, this maybe my last post for now until that boy read this, and dear boy if you have already finish reading this,response me, seriously, I never made soulful post like this . this post born from my single heart just for you dear.Lastly,i want you know that I love you. Love, Put3 Syazwanie.
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